Eventually you will come to understand that love heals everything, and love is all there is. ~ Gary Zukav

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

My Beautiful Angel

I miss you.

I would slay dragons for you

Seriously, don't you hate when you are watching a movie and so much bad stuff happens that you can't take much more? Instead of going straight to "Happily Ever After" there is the filler of wrapping up loose ends. So much time left - there is bound to be more bad stuff! Like when the monster is dead, but the camera keeps panning back to it, so you KNOW it isn't over! This is the part of the story where you want the happy ending to hurry up and get here before something else bad happens!...

Setting the scene;
The Hero commoner is gone (I get to be the Hero commoner, because I'm writing this).
The Princess is recovering from her ordeal (still Beautiful, as always).
In some ways the rescue didn't go as planned, but the dragon is dead and the Princess is still adored by all (no surprise here).
The Princess will forever be indebted to the Hero commoner (which is kind of cool, because they were already secretly in Love).
The Hero commoner rests uneasy, for he can not stop thinking, "Was the dragon really dead?".
(You see, he knew he had run it through, but neglected to cut off it's head!)
...and just like in the movies that would come long after his time, his attention keeps going back to the monster.
In his minds eye he's looking for a twitch of an eyelid, a shallow breath ...not trusting this apparent victory.
So now the Hero commoner is gone. He can not stay with his Princess if the dragon still lives.
He can not take a chance of any more harm coming to her...

This is the part of the movie where everyone wishes the dragon dead, but you just don't know for sure.
This is the part of the story where you go, "I KNEW IT! I knew there was more! NO WAY it would be THAT easy!", (Forgetting how hard it really was).
This is where I slay dragons for Kathy while she recovers... FOR REAL.

I might need help.

Better Days.....

This is Ronda,  I got here this morning to see Kathy's lovely spirit and positive attitude. Amber and Michelle just showed up, she absolutely loves it when people show up for a visit. Oh ya, Mark was here too...

Jess called and wants to remind everyone that the benefit meeting for Kathy is  at 7pm tonight at the Havana Club , across the street from Four Daughters.....

Kathy's swelling has gone down significantly, it's amazing to watch her progress, even in a day!!
On Friday, Danielle, Janelle and Suzanne, will be here,. I think it will be a mad house. Kathy cant wait. Sorry I missed you last weekend Kristi, but happy you were here for K.
Well, I never really did too well  in "creative writing" so time for me to sign off before we lose readers :)

TTYL.....

Here's an update from today:
Hope you don't mind Ronda - I checked on the blog, hoping you wrote, and when Kathy told me you thought you accidentally deleted the message you wrote, I figured it probably saved to Drafts, so I published it!

Update from Medford

Hi Friends,  Jessica here.

Ronda was able to be with Kathy today, but had some trouble with the blog...She will be sending a Kathy update this evening:)

I talked to Kathy for a short time this morning and was so happy to hear the spit-fire returning to her voice!  Her stubborn determination is one of my favorite of her qualities...haha!!

One of the things I shared with her today was this observation:  Kathy's accident has affected and re-arranged the priorities of SO MANY people...It's truly amazing to hear about and to watch;  It's like we've all gotten a second chance too!  A second chance to take advantage of what a gift and a blessing our lives are...It has reminded us how lucky we are to have amazing humans like Kathy in our day to day and how easily we tend to take our friends and family for granted!  This priceless lesson is coming at quite a cost to her...
  
I invite ALL who are available to come to our fundraiser brainstorming session tonight(7:00pm @Havana Republic:  123 W. Main St. Medford)  I know that Kathy has an abundance of friends, all talented in different ways.   Looking forward to meeting and getting to know you ALL!

Love, light and blessings!!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

carry on without me

Out of surgery.   In good spirits.   Still has wound vacs on both sides of her left calf.   Thought one side would be closed up after this surgery.   Staples removed from right thigh (where the veins were harvested for left knee).   Steri-strips in place instead.   Serious stretching of calf muscles while Kathy was out.   I have to leave.   Did not go outside today.   Waited for surgery.   Starving.   Hasn't eaten for 24 hours.   Nurses love her.   I have to leave.   She can maneuver herself over the edge to the potty.   How will she get the potty next to the bed?   Sometimes the nurses take so long to answer.   Ordered food.   The next two days will be lonely for Kathy.   Put a layer of pillows under her sheet.   I have to leave.   Hasn't read these blog posts yet.   Said she can't post on drugs.   May not be updates until someone visits.   Sad.   Because...   I have to leave.    

I am reminded of bumblebees

Watching the people in Kathy's life go into crises mode to help, is remarkable!

Practically mixing a gumbo with all the planned activity!
Literally bumping into each other organizing different ideas!
Inspiring in their enthusiasm!

...and a little a little embarrassing.

 As I write this it seems we have so much.
Sure, Kathy gives of herself and this is really all about her, but the part of this that is embarrassing, that I'm kicking myself for, is not having health insurance on her.
It adds a stupid aspect to this whole thing that is inexcusable. I'm fighting Geico Insurance right now, because Full Coverage Motorcycle Insurance apparantly covers everything EXCEPT MEDICAL FOR THE ONE PAYING THE POLICY!?! If you aren't sure you better check your policies.
 I don't know where this is going to end up, but it's the last thing I want Kathy to worry about. If I have to work the rest of my life paying medical bills (kicking the bucket at 95 while on the job). To have Kathy here, it will be worth it!

She's in surgery again.

I'm glad Kathy has friends who are helping. Honey Makers!
Busy friends, excited to be the kind of friend Kathy is to them.
Lotsa sweetness flowin 'round heah!
Kathy won't forget what you are doing for her... I know I sure won't ever forget it either!

what if it was you?

Is it better to have a life left unlived, when something bad happens, or to have lived life fully?

Kathy always says, "There is a million ways to live your life!"

I'm pretty sure waiting for ANOTHER surgery wasn't one of the ways she considered.

A big part of why she is so cool is that Kathy loves new experiences and doesn't judge people.
The adventurous side of her has taken her all over the world.
Even so, the things that she really loves aren't the big spectacle attractions, but getting off the beaten path, living like the locals.
I tell her she is too trusting. She has more faith in humanity than I do.
It doesn't hurt that she is so cute.
She talks to everybody the same, with a respect unearned, given freely.
Not pretentious, she finds the good in everyone she meets.
As a result, she has people who love her from all over!

More than most of the people I know, Kathy lives life fully!
When you climb higher you have a farther distance to fall.
If she lived life for just herself the loss of ability is hers alone,
but she lives it in a way that adds to the lives of those around her.
It will be a loss to us all if we let her lose her great spirit for life.

There may be a million ways to live your life, but Kathy chose to live a life with all of us in hers.

Isn't your life better for it?