carry on without me

Out of surgery.   In good spirits.   Still has wound vacs on both sides of her left calf.   Thought one side would be closed up after this surgery.   Staples removed from right thigh (where the veins were harvested for left knee).   Steri-strips in place instead.   Serious stretching of calf muscles while Kathy was out.   I have to leave.   Did not go outside today.   Waited for surgery.   Starving.   Hasn't eaten for 24 hours.   Nurses love her.   I have to leave.   She can maneuver herself over the edge to the potty.   How will she get the potty next to the bed?   Sometimes the nurses take so long to answer.   Ordered food.   The next two days will be lonely for Kathy.   Put a layer of pillows under her sheet.   I have to leave.   Hasn't read these blog posts yet.   Said she can't post on drugs.   May not be updates until someone visits.   Sad.   Because...   I have to leave.    

I am reminded of bumblebees

Watching the people in Kathy's life go into crises mode to help, is remarkable!

Practically mixing a gumbo with all the planned activity!
Literally bumping into each other organizing different ideas!
Inspiring in their enthusiasm!

...and a little a little embarrassing.

 As I write this it seems we have so much.
Sure, Kathy gives of herself and this is really all about her, but the part of this that is embarrassing, that I'm kicking myself for, is not having health insurance on her.
It adds a stupid aspect to this whole thing that is inexcusable. I'm fighting Geico Insurance right now, because Full Coverage Motorcycle Insurance apparantly covers everything EXCEPT MEDICAL FOR THE ONE PAYING THE POLICY!?! If you aren't sure you better check your policies.
 I don't know where this is going to end up, but it's the last thing I want Kathy to worry about. If I have to work the rest of my life paying medical bills (kicking the bucket at 95 while on the job). To have Kathy here, it will be worth it!

She's in surgery again.

I'm glad Kathy has friends who are helping. Honey Makers!
Busy friends, excited to be the kind of friend Kathy is to them.
Lotsa sweetness flowin 'round heah!
Kathy won't forget what you are doing for her... I know I sure won't ever forget it either!

what if it was you?

Is it better to have a life left unlived, when something bad happens, or to have lived life fully?

Kathy always says, "There is a million ways to live your life!"

I'm pretty sure waiting for ANOTHER surgery wasn't one of the ways she considered.

A big part of why she is so cool is that Kathy loves new experiences and doesn't judge people.
The adventurous side of her has taken her all over the world.
Even so, the things that she really loves aren't the big spectacle attractions, but getting off the beaten path, living like the locals.
I tell her she is too trusting. She has more faith in humanity than I do.
It doesn't hurt that she is so cute.
She talks to everybody the same, with a respect unearned, given freely.
Not pretentious, she finds the good in everyone she meets.
As a result, she has people who love her from all over!

More than most of the people I know, Kathy lives life fully!
When you climb higher you have a farther distance to fall.
If she lived life for just herself the loss of ability is hers alone,
but she lives it in a way that adds to the lives of those around her.
It will be a loss to us all if we let her lose her great spirit for life.

There may be a million ways to live your life, but Kathy chose to live a life with all of us in hers.

Isn't your life better for it?