It's late.
Normally I would cuddle close and whisper in her ear, hoping she is still awake.
What I'm about to tell her is almost always a mystery to me until I say it.
Sometimes I just repeat tried and true like "I love you", or "Have good dreams, put me in them"
sometimes I say the first thing that I think of (which can surprise me by being a gem, or flop and bring an embarrassing unintended laugh),
sometimes I start to whisper... then stop, not wanting to wake her.
It's all an excuse to get close to her.
Since the accident it's no different.
No different, other than the frequency that I decide to not wake her.
These days, sleep is so precious.
Sometimes, when I think she's awake and I whisper in her ear, I know she doesn't hear what I said, but she reaches over or slides up next to me, and I smile.
She may have missed hearing a gem, but I didn't miss getting closer.
Right now she's sleeping.
I don't have the heart to wake her.
If I did, I would whisper something simple like, "My Beautiful Angel"
or the first thing I think of right now like, "I can barely hear you breathing, will you snore or something?"
